I Believe In Personal Responsibility

Im making some cofee this morning and plan in about 30 minutes to the hour to get ready for an office job interview to make some extra money. I believe playing with sparkly clips and journals with paint is what every female adults really need to personalize their leisure time before their responsibility. I open my music carasol. Its in a old fashioned red box that smells of age. I twist the wind up and watch the animals dance around the elephant in the middle and think of you. I wear cotton candy perfume because it reminds me of the days I knew you and would die for you just to know you knew i cared and you werent alone in this world. I apply the purple eyeliner with the neon green in looks stoic against my freshly died and trimmed dark blue hair. I make sure the things i do mirrors how I feel inside because Ive found that in the future of your life you often regret doing what others wanted you to do with your life and appearance rather than express the person inside each day working towards your goal. If she could only see me now. The cure for her daughters illness and the hope needed for her and him to get up each day. my eyes close as i decide a cigarrette is not what i need because im drowning in the music box. My next idea a model classic ferris wheel. that i can put with a new music box that mirrors old fashioned pressious stones and metals.