I Hate My Body

This is one of the rare moments that I will talk openly about my insecurities. We probably heard a lot of people who've said they hate their body or they are unhappy with how they look. You are probably one of them too. Like you and the others, I dislike my body as well. Uneven skintone, dark underarms, my thighs rubbing with each other when I walk, blackheads on my nose, occassional pimples on my face, back, and even on my butt, stretch marks on my thighs due to weight gain... I can go on forever about the things I hate about my body. I feel ugly. I feel unattractive. Why do some people have it all but I can't? I know I am a smart woman but do people even bother about that? You wouldn't know I am smart if you haven't talked to me but why would you even talk to someone who doesn't look like a model nor a beauty queen. I feel embarassed everytime I shop for clothes because I will always have to buy large and printed ones so my lovehandles and muffin top will be hidden. People have told me I am not fat, that I have the right curves at the right places. This kind of compliment usually boost my self-confidence but when I face the mirror again, I feel disgusted. I want a perfect body, is that too much to ask? What is even the meaning of perfect body, anyway? Is it about having no flaws or is it having flaws but learning how to accept them? How about you, what is your idea of perfection?