I Am Nobody Special

I Am The Opposite Actually...
Here is who I am
You may think I want pitty
But that is not true
I am just being honest
My name is Philip Gabriel Spector
I am 17 year old
I am currently in a continuation school
After I attempted suicide they at the hospital said I was hearing voices
I was
But it wasn't and is not that bad
I was asked plenty of times at my rehab facilitiy if I was
I said no everytime
I do not believe in anything
I do not know what to believe in
I have no personality
I have trouble communicating with others
I do horrible at school
I have burned myself
But I deserve far worse
I have broken 2 serious laws
I should be in prison right now
I wear a hood and hat at school
I do not like anyone to see me
But I want communication
I want friends
But I do not take that step
I am holding on to 1 thing
Once she leaves me my life will end
I am Philip Gabriel Spector
I am nothing
I am nobody special