I Don't Believe Everything Is And Will Be Okay
They keep telling me this. I keep telling it to myself. You know what it indicates when you have to keep telling yourself something, right? Yeah, it means it's bullshit.
One by one I've lost every piece of my life that made it recognizably mine. That's all right; there's always something new out there. "It will be okay," people tell me. "It will be okay," I tell myself.
But then I keep making stupid mistakes that pile up and cost me even when I don't count on it. "It will be okay," people tell me. "It will be okay," I tell myself.
The days drag by and whatever I accomplish looks like nothing to anyone. "It will be okay," people tell me. "It will be okay," I tell myself.
I succeed at some trivial thing, looking like perhaps my life will fall into some kind of order, but it never does. It's always what I suspect it is - irrelevant. "It will be okay," people tell me. "It will be okay," I tell myself.
Even my parents, these days, are leaning toward the side of "If you really want to kill yourself, there's nothing we can do to stop you." Not that I really want to kill myself anymore, but sometimes I just don't see the regular exit.
"It will be okay," people tell me.
"It will be okay," I tell myself.
One by one I've lost every piece of my life that made it recognizably mine. That's all right; there's always something new out there. "It will be okay," people tell me. "It will be okay," I tell myself.
But then I keep making stupid mistakes that pile up and cost me even when I don't count on it. "It will be okay," people tell me. "It will be okay," I tell myself.
The days drag by and whatever I accomplish looks like nothing to anyone. "It will be okay," people tell me. "It will be okay," I tell myself.
I succeed at some trivial thing, looking like perhaps my life will fall into some kind of order, but it never does. It's always what I suspect it is - irrelevant. "It will be okay," people tell me. "It will be okay," I tell myself.
Even my parents, these days, are leaning toward the side of "If you really want to kill yourself, there's nothing we can do to stop you." Not that I really want to kill myself anymore, but sometimes I just don't see the regular exit.
"It will be okay," people tell me.
"It will be okay," I tell myself.
