I Don't Get It, I Don't Just Don't Understand

I lead one of if not the biggest loser life on the planet. Read my stories, that should give you a clue. No matter what my goals, no matter how hard I try, I come up short. The odd thing is everytime I think that I have had enough and that I won't go through that again, I do. I guess I'm just too curious to see if it will change. I hope it will, but if I end it all, I will never know, because once I'm gone, I can't come back. So since tomorrow isn't for sure going to be better,or maybe not even the same, I think that I will take a look, just in case, because you never know 💜