I Really, Really Need a Hug
My Secret/ Why I Am Ashamed, Embarassed, And Very Depressed...
I wrote my story else where and will just copy it:
I have a secret (I am 17 and am not going to lie ahead of time my grammar is bad), anyways so things have just changed a lot over time. About a year ago I transfered from Westview to Abraxas, which is a continuation school to help me get back on track to graduate. Well I am doing good in school, but the about 8 friends I had I did not keep in touch with, and I started withdrawing I don't know why and now I just do not talk to anyone and cannot start a conversation. Ok so about 3-4 months ago my mood because of this started going way south and I was getting depressed and with each week it would get worse and worse, and I really liked someone a lot and I am very emotional and let the emotions get the best of me, I started kind of harassing her I guess you could say by going to her myspace page and I would talk about the mood I am in and why, and it freaked her out. She told me from myspace to leave her alone and as much as I really have tried I have not completly. I tried to apologize to her after I got out of hospital and urgent care because I failed a suicide attempt by overdosing well I tried but once she saw me in front of her she lifted her head rolled her eyes and walked past me, I told her on myspace what I tried to do but rightfully she I think can't forgive me for what I did before. I am still depressed and I cannot deal with this shit anymore, I am not sure but I bet if I could get my hand on a gun I would know what I would do to it. I have no place in this world imo, have no reason to live, and do not deserve to live for what I have done. Comments appreciated and join my circle or however you get friends on here thanks.
I wrote my story else where and will just copy it:
I have a secret (I am 17 and am not going to lie ahead of time my grammar is bad), anyways so things have just changed a lot over time. About a year ago I transfered from Westview to Abraxas, which is a continuation school to help me get back on track to graduate. Well I am doing good in school, but the about 8 friends I had I did not keep in touch with, and I started withdrawing I don't know why and now I just do not talk to anyone and cannot start a conversation. Ok so about 3-4 months ago my mood because of this started going way south and I was getting depressed and with each week it would get worse and worse, and I really liked someone a lot and I am very emotional and let the emotions get the best of me, I started kind of harassing her I guess you could say by going to her myspace page and I would talk about the mood I am in and why, and it freaked her out. She told me from myspace to leave her alone and as much as I really have tried I have not completly. I tried to apologize to her after I got out of hospital and urgent care because I failed a suicide attempt by overdosing well I tried but once she saw me in front of her she lifted her head rolled her eyes and walked past me, I told her on myspace what I tried to do but rightfully she I think can't forgive me for what I did before. I am still depressed and I cannot deal with this shit anymore, I am not sure but I bet if I could get my hand on a gun I would know what I would do to it. I have no place in this world imo, have no reason to live, and do not deserve to live for what I have done. Comments appreciated and join my circle or however you get friends on here thanks.
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