I Fight Depression and Loneliness Everyday

Usually when I go to sleep it helps relieves my anxiety and depression but I wake up and im still as listless as ever. As opposed to what most people say when they get into their depressive states I don't want to sleep/can't sleep well when I get depressed. And for some reason the fact that I will close my eyes, and when I open them it will be 6 or 8 hours later fills me with crippling anxiety. So I end up not sleeping going to school struggling to stay awake in class crawl back to my apartment and pass out then repeat the cycle.

I feel like Depression and Anxiety take up so much of my life. I have two jobs but I really feel I need to quit one because I don't have time to manage my emotions (or try) or to be depressed. Sometimes filling my day with work can keep my mind off of and away from feelings but now that I am in school I feel like im falling apart and I don't have time to put myself back together