I Feel Broken Inside

guess i wasn't that special after all.
no one has the right to make you feel like you're nothing.
no one should take the power on you to bring you down.
life is so unfair.
love is unfair.
happiness is unfair.
why do bad things happen to me.
i want to be happy, that's all.
and happy in my own way.
i don't want to take things and make them good for me.
i want to have what i want!
my life is empty and useless.
all i do everyday is wake up go to college then back home and finally sleep.
i hate it. i hate how empty it is.
don't blame me for fantasizing, since i don't like how reality is.
and one thing i want is to get him back.
or at least hurt him back.
i hate how i m aching alone.
i hate how desperate i ve become.
i hate how sad i am.
i hate that he made me feel this way when he's out there enjoying life and having fun with other girls. i hate how dependent on him. i hate how i can't forget about our time together, our kisses, our laughter,..
i hate how i can't move on.
i hate that i still have hope that we'll get back together when we won't. i hate that still leave the wifi on hoping he will text me.
i hate that i can't get myself to turn the wifi off.
i hate that i still think about him. and i hate how lonely i feel without him.