I Have Borderline Personality Disorder
One of my current diagnoses is actually bipolar, but I think I have borderline personality disorder either instead or as well. I'm too young to be diagnosed with bpd though.
Anyway, I just feel really guilty about myself because I always react to everything very extremely. I get really mad at people, I want to kill myself over every little thing, and my emotional baseline is just always unstable to begin with.
I stab myself when I'm mad, and I have thoughts of stabbing others, and it's always over things others would get over easier.
I get really really sad if someone even looks at me the wrong way.
It's more than just my bipolar mood swings. Those include mania out of nowhere, and depression out of nowhere.
With bpd, it's all about emotional reactions, and the depression I experience with bpd is different than the kind I experience with bipolar.
With bipolar, I'm just in a depressed mood. With bpd, I'm depressed because of shame that I exist.
I wish I could just be less intense, but at the same time, I would feel wrong if I wasn't.
Anyway, I just feel really guilty about myself because I always react to everything very extremely. I get really mad at people, I want to kill myself over every little thing, and my emotional baseline is just always unstable to begin with.
I stab myself when I'm mad, and I have thoughts of stabbing others, and it's always over things others would get over easier.
I get really really sad if someone even looks at me the wrong way.
It's more than just my bipolar mood swings. Those include mania out of nowhere, and depression out of nowhere.
With bpd, it's all about emotional reactions, and the depression I experience with bpd is different than the kind I experience with bipolar.
With bipolar, I'm just in a depressed mood. With bpd, I'm depressed because of shame that I exist.
I wish I could just be less intense, but at the same time, I would feel wrong if I wasn't.
22-25
