Mental Health Field

So, I work in the mental health field and I have BPD myself, but NOBODY at work knows about it. Why? Major reason is because we tend to get a few BPD clients and they are seen as their negative traits of like manipulation. It sucks cause it makes me want to cut again because i feel alone all over again. It is really hard to hear coworkers say "yeah...she is definitely BPD and being manipulative" or whatever. So hard to accept myself when I hear that kind of stuff.