I Am Not Ashamed To Admit When I Am Wrong

I admit that I have done so many bad things in the past...I long for forgiveness but I don't think that can really be acheiving. All I can really do is try and make a good life and correct what I've done wrong. I admit that my dad is the cause of hurting others. It's the fact that he takes like a good person when he's everything wrong. All I can really say is I want this I want that. But I will never ask for you outside of spirit and goodness because I feel like my whole life has been I want this I want that. The only problem is...my dad doesn't want me to mean anything I say.