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I Do Not Hate You, I Hate What You Did

I do not hate you, I hate that you gave him the drugs that took his life.
I do not hate him, I hate that he felt so lost and like it wasn't worth it anymore.
I do not hate it, I hate how it made him feel and think.
I do not hate needles, I hate how they can be used.
I do not hate myself,I hate how I am still haunted.

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Lust4lufe · 26-30, M

I’ve been thinking about trying harder shit. Weed is great and it’s not because of that. I’ve been thinking about just doing harder shit. Help deal

Eurydicekallos · 26-30, F

@Lust4lufe Some harder stuff is honestly safer then others, if used in moderation..only thing is about all of the harder stuff is addictive.

Lust4lufe · 26-30, M

Yeah. I’m okay with it. I feel like I don’t see myself living much longer. Just in general.

Eurydicekallos · 26-30, F

That's unfortunate. Is it because like you feel some bad omen/sense or just because you feel like you don't want to anymore?

Lust4lufe · 26-30, M

Yeah. You get it. Life is a game that some people are better at than others. People like me don’t last long here. We come, do our things, then leave. No impact, no meaning, no messages. Just a few hearts that remember how we used to be. I died a long time ago tbh, the physical is the only thing people care about tho. I throw up every other morning. I don’t eat. It’s just water. I lost myself. I lost everything.

Eurydicekallos · 26-30, F

Can I DM/PM you?
You sound similar to how I was right after me and my ex broke up...

Lust4lufe · 26-30, M

Is funny tho. I seriously thought she would stay. I thought I found someone who would never leave. Someone who would be there for me. I killed myself for 4 years to be there for her. Every night, every morning. I stopped sleeping, I wanted her safe, happy, and okay. Now I’m fucking dead and she’s just.. gone “out and about” .. I don’t matter to anyone @Eurydicekallos