I Need Help

I will not claim I can help you. I'll tell you my experience. My daughter used to self harm. The only thing that worked was to be very very strict. We sent her tons very strict therapist too. The only emotional bond was dislike. But it worked. She got back on the straight and narrow and now is a professor herself. I know that's probably not what you want to here. People who self harm crave compassion and understanding. Instead we showed very hard love because it was the only eat to get her off the wrong track. Once on the right path, the compassion flowed not just from us but from everyone. A result of prejudice? No. A result that now she was open and could really relate to herself, the world and others. Good luck. I am not judging. I'm telling you how I handled it. I hope it helps on some way.

I used to do it to clear my mind of the chaos of the arguing demons in my mind and the voices endlessly telling me I would be better off dead. Also because physical pain and the bleeding was somehow life affirming and validating as an outward sign of an emotional pain that I felt like I had no good reason to be so crippled by.
I've since been healed by the Holy Spirit so that whenever they come creeping back I cry out too God and He brings peace. He is there for you if you ask Him.
In the meantime, though, it helps to have distractions. Watch a funny show. Call someone you haven't talked to in a while and ask them how they are doing. Go for a run or a bicycle ride. Hug someone. Know that people have their own insecurities and struggles so they care more than they show and you are not alone in this.
~ <3

If you don't wish to discuss then how can there be progress? no one will judge you i've been there bought the T-shirt the only way is up. but you need to start climbing

I don't know if I can help, but I'd do anything to attempt to. I once partook in such things and it almost killed me, so I hate it with a passion.