I Know the Difference Between Lust and Love

I could never want anything more than you. But I confess I feel like such a whore. The lust to my fucking body keeps setting me on fire . I keep having dreams of daelling in the white. In heaven. In peace and I keep waking scared it's not true. Honestly the guy downstairs ....taught me to admire her even though im scared....I want to have more thoughts of you but look forward to dreaming of you. I want to be freed of selfishness while awake. And be taught to love you under the covers of my bed like when I was a little girl. When things where simpler. Before my morality was taken.