I Give Up

In retrospect I like making new friends and meeting new people but when it comes to being Friends with girls (especially me) and then after a year of knowing that person(s), you start having feelings for them. You start to feel like you belong. You want some one to rely on and depend on. The respect is there and the rapport is to. This time I'm not kidding. I'm done with girls, I'm done with Love, and I'm done with the stupid BS that I always put myself into and of course, I'm done with my lady friend and after being her Friend all this time, I'm not going to text her, I'm not going to call her, and more importantly, I'm not even going to bother with her because my feelings for her are True and Genuine, I just can't tell her of I feel because it will just ruin of what we have for one soul purpose, Friendship, but is also feels like the Friendship will eventually diminish over time. That is why I have to walk away and move on. I know it won't be easy to do but it just feels like it's the best thing to do for me because I can't live like this. It's heartwrenching but it really sucks!! 😢