I Give Up

I just can't win. If I show how depressed/ anxious Im really feeling I get yelled at for not wanting to get help (I do. I'm even in coucilling despite the fact that doctors/ psyciatrists/ etc have always scared the hell out of me) but if I show any sign of happiness- maybe Im having an ok day or able to put on a brave face especially for my kid- I get yelled at for faking my depression/anxiety for attention. Well excuse me for having a deep craving for death because Im broken but dont want to sit there taking self destructive action in front of my 11 year old. When will my fantasy of a zombie apocalypse begin?

Skelepop666 · 36-40, F

Well I use this place to rant/vent/ express my thoughts but I try not to burden people directly with it. Obviously if theyre friends I will try and ask about their wellbeing but I only open up if they ask me a question (and Im not going to sit there and lie. Lying is pointless and only makes things worse for everyone involved).