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The feeling that wont pass
The sweaty palms
The hairs on my neck sticking up
Not able to find a calm

Worried what people will think if they saw me break down
Knowing no one even would care to know

The lump in my throat
Wanting to scream to tell someone
Trying to hold in tears
God forbids someone saw them fall.

Wanting so bad
To do something
That I promised
I would not do

Trying to stay strong
Saying I'm fine
When asked if I am
Okay.

How do i let someone in
When doing so only gives
Them the chance
To hurt me

How much longer will I be in pain
Must I pretend
How much more pain
Should I've to endure

But I'll lie
Say I'm fine
You wont see me cross the line
You can believe my lie.

The impending doom
The beating of my heart
I hope it passes soon
It just hurts my heart.