I Am Grieving

It's been almost 2 months.
The services are over. The cards and casseroles have dried up and for everyone else it is done and life has moved on. As far as friends many don't know what to say so they avoid me. I guess that is normal. I really don't have anything interesting to say except that my son died and I am grieving and for right now that IS my life. I am not the same person so you can either toss your previous perceptions of me and wait it out or move on. (This is directed at no one, I am speaking in a general sense.)
What am I doing? I am drinking my water and trying to eat. I am slowly regaining the ground I lost in my exercise regimen. I am doing my chores. I am writing and drawing and going to my grief group. I make myself talk to close friends when I really want to be left alone in my thoughts. I get up each morning and remember and then force myself into routines wishing for it to be dark so I can go to bed. All of this takes an unbelievable amount of energy when what I want to do is give up and drown.

Highonheels · 51-55, M

I have three kids of my own and I can’t imagine losing even one of them , about 6 months ago my kids were in a house fire and had to exscape from the flames they weren’t hurt but when my wife called me and told me what had happened that was all I could think of was are the girls ok, I’m sure it was a very traumatic experience for them though, well anyway I’m not trying to overshadow your loss I’m just trying to be empathetic to the way your feeling but I can’t even imagine what that would be like ,

I’m so sorry for your loss hun , I know it must be very hard to deal with but I’m glad your going to that grievance support group it helps it really does