I Am Grieving

Last night I dreamed I was looking for my husband. Somebody told me he was on a ship going overseas. I was desperate to talk to him and convince him to stay. I needed a special phone to talk with him on the ship. Nobody would help me to get this phone. Our friends said to just let him be. I was so pissed at them. I woke up feeling very sad and crying.
I always dream of desperately searching for Lenny and never being able to get to him. I have not dreamed of seeing or hearing him since he died. I hope one day I will.