Ever feel like you are dying a slow, lonely death?

Idk I feel like I am dying a slow death for sure, but not so much lonely, I chose not to feel that a long time ago. I was fighting the urge big time a while back but now I am so busy with these three little people that need me to care about them, that I don't have time to even consider nor entertain the thought.
I feel a little stuck at the moment and I know that is my own doing and I am doing what I can to change things because I know that it is on me to do so. It just isn't going fast enough I guess. Well now I have gone off on my own tangent and anyway thank you for giving me the opportunity to do so.

I have back when I was severely depressed and sick most days
No im good

Yes and Yes

Hmmm yes. No.

All the time

No. I do not want to kill myself.

Aren't we all?