Am I an asshole for not wanting friends? I mean, comments would help
I ended up talking to a girl, to be fair she's way out of my league, for a month and a half. I really fell for her. Probably WAY too quick. I tend to do that. But I really ended up liking her a lot. I'd call her beautiful regularly and stuff and shared a lot of intimate and personal stuff and vice versa. I just started really getting close and she didn't I guess. Fair enough, I'm hardly special and I'm hardly the only person in her life. I'm nothing to her or anyone really. And it came eight months on the heel of someone else anyway.
I had honestly gotten over the preceding girl and gotten okay with the idea that I'll be forever alone. But, then I met her. And I told her if she gave me a no to all the the things I say to her and all the beautiful remarks and stuff I'd respect the boundary and just be friends.
But I kinda realized I can't do that. We talked today and I just realized that it's been eating at me since she told me no. Especially knowing that I'm talking to someone who will never feel the way about me that I do about her. I just can't do it anymore. I'd rather be alone than keep feeling this way.
So I blocked her. On all of the platforms we used.
I can't even really say anything to her, I mean there's nothing left to say. I know I said I could be friends but I can't. I just blocked her. I just want to move forward. I'm tired of falling for women and never having it reciprocated and knowing that no one will ever love me or desire me the way I do someone else.
Hearing that I'm "great boyfriend material" but not enough for anyone to give a chance to even once. And I'm 24. I'm not the kid I was and no one will ever really see me. I don't really believe anyone can love me anyway. I feel bad about it. She doesn't owe me, but I don't owe her either. She's gonna wake up in the morning when she leaves the hospital (she was in for vertigo and such) and go to text me and I won't be there anymore. But I just can't do it.
I had honestly gotten over the preceding girl and gotten okay with the idea that I'll be forever alone. But, then I met her. And I told her if she gave me a no to all the the things I say to her and all the beautiful remarks and stuff I'd respect the boundary and just be friends.
But I kinda realized I can't do that. We talked today and I just realized that it's been eating at me since she told me no. Especially knowing that I'm talking to someone who will never feel the way about me that I do about her. I just can't do it anymore. I'd rather be alone than keep feeling this way.
So I blocked her. On all of the platforms we used.
I can't even really say anything to her, I mean there's nothing left to say. I know I said I could be friends but I can't. I just blocked her. I just want to move forward. I'm tired of falling for women and never having it reciprocated and knowing that no one will ever love me or desire me the way I do someone else.
Hearing that I'm "great boyfriend material" but not enough for anyone to give a chance to even once. And I'm 24. I'm not the kid I was and no one will ever really see me. I don't really believe anyone can love me anyway. I feel bad about it. She doesn't owe me, but I don't owe her either. She's gonna wake up in the morning when she leaves the hospital (she was in for vertigo and such) and go to text me and I won't be there anymore. But I just can't do it.
26-30, M
