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I Hate Myself

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I'm an idiot for wishfully thinking and pretending I'd have someone to be friendless and alone with together. I'm selfish for wanting more friendship from the first real friend I'd had in years. I'm disgusting for not being happy for them because they're not alone anymore. I'm horrible for being angry at them when it's not their fault. I'm a moron for never being able saying anything. I'm terrible for letting feelings overcome logic. I'm so stupid to feel so strong about and attached to someone I never met.

I don't want to loose what I have even though I don't deserve it.
I don't wanna be forgotten again.

Maybe if I just held on to the last few things I used loved about myself, even if I didn't like it anymore, this wouldn't have happened. I didn't hold on. I have no one blame but myself.

It's all my fault. I hate myself for all of it. I'm just tired...
22-25, F
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Nov 20, 2016
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You are what you think you are. you have it in your hands. You can decide if you think negative or positive..
I DO BELIEVE THAT THE ONES WHO FEEL SO MUCH HATRED, AT ONCE THEY GAVE LOVE SO MUCH. MAYBE IT'S A SITUATION, OR PEOPLE OR SUCH CERTAIN THINGS TURNED THAT LOVE INTO HATE. I ALSO FEEL THE SAME SHIT. I AM IN THE PROCESS OF DEALING WITH THAT HATRED. WE CALL OURSELVES IDIOT, MORON, STUPID WE BLAME OURSELVES FOR IT BECAUSE WE LET OUR EMOTIONS LEAD US.
I WANT TO TELL YOU THIS AND ALSO TO MYSELF AS WE FEEL THE SAME THING.
WE ARE NOT IDIOTS MAYBE WE DO SOME SHIT THINGS BUT IT DOESN'T MEAN WE ARE IDIOTS.
MAYBE WE ARE BIT OF SELFISH BUT I DON'T THINK IT'S WRONG FOR US TO HOPE OR WISH FOR SOMEONE TO LOVE AND APPRECIATE US.
INDEED WE ARE DISGUSTING BECAUSE WE FEEL HATE TO OURSELVES THAT WE FEEL IT'S UNFAIR FOR US THAT THEY ARE HAPPY AND WE ARE NOT.
IT IS ALL WRONG FOR US TO LET OUR ANGER AND EMOTIONS TO CONTROL US.
BUT YOU KNOW WHAT I HAVE BEEN THINKING LATELY IS THAT.. MAYBE IT'S TIME FOR A CHANGE. IDK HOW CAUSE I AM CURRENTLY STILL FIGURING IT OUT. BUT MAYBE WE HAVE TO LET GO THINGS AND ACCEPT WHAT'S ALREADY DONE AND SAID.
YES MAYBE IT'S ALL OUR FAULT. BUT IF WE KEEP ON BLAMING OURSELVES FOR ALL OF IT INSTEAD OF LEARNING FROM IT WE WILL NEVER MOVE ON, WE WILL ALWAYS GET TIRED TO DEAL WITH OVER AND OVER AGAIN WHEN IN FACT WE HAVE OTHER CHOICES.
I HOPE YOU FIND YOUR WAY BACK TO LOVING YOURSELF AGAIN, AND TO ME IDK IF I'LL EVER FIND A WAY BACK BECAUSE I STILL DEAL WITH THIS SHIT MANY TIMES AND SO FAR THIS IS WHAT I LEARNED FROM DEALING SUCH HUGE HATRED, AND I TELL YOU IT'S A VERY DIFFICULT FIGHT AGAINST ONESELF.
BluntSm0ker · 26-30, M
Don't be so harsh on yourself!
OWTFWN · M
Relax take the guilt and self-loathing off. Yu control so much of life just ease up and do your best, that young lady is all you can do.
It's okay to feel this way .you can honor your feelings without besting yourself up for them. :) and don't listen to ranting loco there ...

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