I Just Don't Know What to Do Anymore

When it all goes down

I feel like I'm outside looking in everyday seems like another day of the same shit. Same routine same faces I feel like I'm loosing control of everything. I look in the mirror and I see this shell of a person. Is this what numb feels like or looks like? I just don't know anymore and I am tired of feeling this way like at any moment the whole world is gonna cave in around me and I'll just be there and watch because I'm on the outside looking in and there is absolutely nothing I can do.