I Am Depressed Because I'm Lonely

Am so depressed right now, my mood keeps swinging, cause there is many things in life that I want, but cant have.if u seen my problems you will think am weak or spoiled but the truth is that am very sad I dont know maybe am making it big and its small..i dont wanna complain or cry to strangers on the internet or real life,i keep it all inside i dont want peaople to feel sorry for me...am leaving my best friends,i have no man ,am poor ,and the worst of all i am 5kilos over weight. why did God created me in this miserable life, why wasnt I a plant or a bird....life is a stripper who stripped in front of everybody, but when it came my turn she repented !