I went insane

I've been working at this place for 3 years. I loved it the first year. Slowly I started hating everything about it. These people bullied me so bad I don't think I'll ever feel normal again. After being tormented and my mind being messed with. From them tormenting me and then later being extremely nice. I had mentioned my treatment to my manager. Nothing changed. Slowly their abuse got worse and worse. I couldn't do anything about it. I felt like I can't leave because its the best job I can get. This one woman was mocking me and fake laughing at me. I simply just snapped and lost my mind. I started screaming at her as loud as I could. Telling her she can't laugh in my face like I'm not human. And that she was f...ing evil. My manager had to drag me out of the room and I was still screaming and cussing her out. I was screaming through the entire building. Before I lost my mind I went to lunch to try to calm down and it didn't work. And thought if I have to continue working here and there is nothing better I can't live anymore.

My manager brought me over to a room and someone walked passed the door and I started screaming at them. And they tried to tell me they never said anything wrong to me. So I flipped out some more and said don't lie to my face.

I was so upset that I could barely hear myself. I couldn't see and I couldn't feel my body. And I was screaming so loud. And every time someone tried to take me away I was just screaming louder. I couldn't stop and nobody could stop me and I couldn't hear anything.

Now everyone is being super nice to me probably becuae they are now scared of me.. But one person. Told me that I looked like a psycho.

My heart no longer beats correctly anymore for the past months. Sometimes I feel like I can't breath because of it. I think it has to do with how much stress I have from working here. My stomach hurts all the time.

And honestly I don't know if I'll ever feel good again.