I Have the Urge to Self Injure

I'M Sorry... I'm sorry for being so begative. I don't mean to be this way but it is the only way i can get my words out, even when i know no one is listening. I'm sorry for not being perfect. I'm sorry for not being good enough for anything or anyone. I'm sorry for constantly making mistakes. I'm sorry for lying. I'm sorry for always crying. I'm sorry for who i am, and who i was, and i am sorry for who i will become. I'm sorry for hurting people that are closest to me. I'm sorry for pushing you all away. I'm sorry for all the attention, i don't mean to draw it to myself. I'm sorry for saying sorry.I'm sorry for making friends, for i know i will lose them in the end. I'm sorry for the nightmares and the way you let me play you like a chess game. I'm sorry for everything. I can make it better. I can go into my bedroom and go into my bed and bury myself into my covers and keep burying myself deeper until there is no place left to go.