I Hate Being Ignored

I haven't posted on here in two years. I didn't even realize I still had this account. I looked at some of my posts and wow, the memories. Anyways I just kinda felt like venting tonight, well now it's the early morning. I always get ghosted, especially if it's with a girl. It always happens without fail. Granted these are women I'd encounter online with no former, real life connection but is it normal to get ghosted 10/10 times? I mean sure, some conversations will fizzle out but I don't remember it being this bad for me where I'm ghosted every time. I'm 26 years old now and as you get older, it's a lot harder to connect with new people & make friends. I understand people have lives and more responsibility as we get older, but is it too much to ask to have just one single person maintain a conversation with me or initiate a message first? I have zero friends and no SO, so how am I ever going to change my social situation if every person I chat with ghosts me? I've heard people talk about getting ghosted and it'd last a week or even two, but I can't even last a full conversation. I don't say anything off putting, send salacious pics or blow them up when I don't get a response right away. Every time I get ghosted I leave it alone but each time it happens a part of me just dies. It makes me feel like I'm not worthy to maintain something with, not even a friendship. It sucks. I'm sure I'll get someone being a contrarian to everything I'm saying and I know it's not the end of the world but with how my life is already, it really hits me to the core. There's just never a scenario where I don't get ghosted...ever. I might as well legally change my name to Ghost.