I Am a Caregiver

Today I went to wake my great grandparents up from their nap. Opened the door, grandpa is sound asleep but grandma is curled up crying. She wouldn’t tell me why.
She has dementia and isn’t expected to make it too much longer for other health reasons. I wish I knew how to make her more comfortable here.
I got her up, gave her a pb&j upon request and put on her favorite TV show, she seems to have calmed down. Can’t help but wonder if taking them in has caused more harm than good. But I know that’s not true.

When she first got sick(she had a stroke and went into heart failure) almost two years ago we moved her and our grandfather in with us. Her dementia has gotten a lot worse since then and lately she keeps asking why she can’t go home. This was never home to her.

Once maybe a month ago I was walking by their bedroom door, heard them talking. I might have been being nosey but I heard the saddest thing I’ve ever heard him say to her.
She asked him if he regretted marrying her. After a long pause he said yes and told her he wished he married someone else. All she said was “okay, I’m sorry. Sorry I’m a bad wife.” I’m pretty sure she didn’t sleep that night, spent the whole next day struggling to stay awake.


:( we’re doing our best with what we have, but I don’t feel like it’s enough at times.