I Want To Look You In Your Eyes And Tell You That I Love You
[c=#009E4F]I'm remembering a time I slept over. You were living with Kinney*, and Sid* was planted on your couch at the time....Everytime I drive by that place I look up to those windows and picture us all sitting and standing in there...Anyways, this one particular time I have replaying in my mind:[/c]
[c=#7700B2]*click*click*click*click*click* I'm running away, early morning. I'm wearing the girly high-healed cowboy boots my friend Baxter gave to me in college. *click*click* The morning's cool-ness passing through my hair as i quietly giggle to myself. Each movement noted with an echoing "click" throughout the exterior hallways of your building. I was running because I was overcome with a swirl of emotion. We fell asleep moments before on your bed and I abruptly got up. You got up too. We did not do anything intimate that night. We just slept and i woke up. I told you I had to go. We hugged. I gave you a real good hug. I buried my face in your chest and breathed deeply, like it was the last time I would. I told myself in my head that it would be. That I shouldn't see you...but the truth is is that i did see you again. I couldn't not see you. I thought about you. I went on dates with other guys. You continued to exist in my mind. There was something different about you. You made me feel feelings i hadn't felt before. You made me feel some feelings i hadn't felt in a long time too.... But we were younger then. I felt you needed more time; I needed more time before looking at what we could have together. Connection. There is a connection. I will never doubt that.[/c]
...We are older now...[c=#003BB2]the world has put some things in the way.. but i can't give up on you[/c]. I won't. We will drop the protective nonsense we've built between us and we will be together for realz. [c=#800000]Hopefully sooner than later.[/c] [c=#008099]I've loved you from afar for years. Not a day goes by where i don't think of you.[/c]
[c=#7700B2]*click*click*click*click*click* I'm running away, early morning. I'm wearing the girly high-healed cowboy boots my friend Baxter gave to me in college. *click*click* The morning's cool-ness passing through my hair as i quietly giggle to myself. Each movement noted with an echoing "click" throughout the exterior hallways of your building. I was running because I was overcome with a swirl of emotion. We fell asleep moments before on your bed and I abruptly got up. You got up too. We did not do anything intimate that night. We just slept and i woke up. I told you I had to go. We hugged. I gave you a real good hug. I buried my face in your chest and breathed deeply, like it was the last time I would. I told myself in my head that it would be. That I shouldn't see you...but the truth is is that i did see you again. I couldn't not see you. I thought about you. I went on dates with other guys. You continued to exist in my mind. There was something different about you. You made me feel feelings i hadn't felt before. You made me feel some feelings i hadn't felt in a long time too.... But we were younger then. I felt you needed more time; I needed more time before looking at what we could have together. Connection. There is a connection. I will never doubt that.[/c]
...We are older now...[c=#003BB2]the world has put some things in the way.. but i can't give up on you[/c]. I won't. We will drop the protective nonsense we've built between us and we will be together for realz. [c=#800000]Hopefully sooner than later.[/c] [c=#008099]I've loved you from afar for years. Not a day goes by where i don't think of you.[/c]
31-35, F
