I just don't know what to do anymore.

I feel like I'm stuck in a never ending cycle of the same jobs, and the same problems. I try to dig myself out of it, but it keeps burying me. I am in a job where I have to smile when I talk on the phone, and I get rude and complaining customers all day, and still have to smile and be as polite as possible while they metaphorically take a dump on me. I get paid $10.50 per hour plus commission (If I make 10 sales or more, and I'm not even a sales associate), and I'm trying so hard to get out of this position. Every time I try to get out of a job like this, I end up in a worse job. Last year, I paid $3,000 to take an online class for a medical transcription editing certificate, which I don't know if I'm cut out for anymore...and I haven't finished the class because I keep getting distracted with my anxiety and ADD...or something happens like someone dies. It's like the powers that be don't want me to do anything else with my life. I've just been so depressed, and don't know what to do with myself anymore.

There is a lot more going on with my life, but I don't wanna bore you. It's also too much for me to explain right now. It's so late, and I need sleep.