I Wish I Could Cry Until There Was No More Pain Left Inside

I walked upstairs today self conscious about the person I was. Thankful I had no baggage is a lie but I should have been....there was a guy upstairs that im always nice to. He started singing you wish you where marry Christmas. You wish you where marry Christmas you wish you where marry Christmas. And a lost my temper and thought to skin him. Which is never a thought or..it was...for a dark period of time where nothing was important but me. The selfishness flowed back into my body. I didn't care. I had been nice I meant every nice action to him....but he kicked me when I was down and for that instance I didn't care. Aware I would never do that to anyone while thinking it. But im aware by now. Sticking up for yourself gets you nowhere. Because I did not think of what was inside his head...only scars possessed from the song. I am sorry. In your name I pray amen.... Im sick of the view...but it's ok.....I saw him though. I saw the understanding in people. But I will get one day why...and I will not feel bad for myself. Only him and others in you name I pray amen.