I Am So Emotionally Tired

Emotions. I want to say no thank you. I don't need you. But we are one in the same. I feel more deeply than most. I expect more from people because I'd give more. Its draining. The disappointment is draining. I wish humans would be more consistent. Not start off one way and turn out to be another.

I really want to reach out to HIM. I miss him. It's sort of pathetic. At least it seems pathetic to me. To miss someone who hardly cared at all in the first place. But miss him I do. Is it a crime?

I know I need to focus on life goals. Career goals. Parenting goals. And just put finding the person who complements me out of my mind. I would settle for a really great friend but even those are in short supply. I often wonder what I'm doing wrong. I know I don't put myself out there but still. COME FIND ME. Jeez. Is that so much to ask. Lol.

Rant end.

mpde

I hear you and feel the same way about some people in my life so far. I feel so deeply and would never treat people the way some have treated me. I have come to know that when people know better, they do better. They not at that stage yet. I have to lower my expectations of them and also, people don't respond the way I expect them to and I have to stop judging them for being who they are. Difficult and I get hurt but am learning every day. :)