I Feel Stupid

I saw what looked to be a father and son throwing a ball around today on their front lawn while heading home. Most people would think that is sweet. I on the other hand felt grumpy at the sight of it. I never had anything like that growing up and I caught myself hating on both of them. I feel stupid because I shouldn't still be like this. I shouldn't be getting mad over seeing father and son bonding moments. I shouldn't feel grumpy seeing happy families. I shouldn't get so darn worked up over silly holidays like fathers day. Yet I still do at damn near 53 years old.

I feel like a kid all over again glaring at the "perfect" family that lived down and across from us. I constantly saw them doing things as a family. Both parents played with their kid in the yard. Mom or dad would laugh and take photos on Halloween and what not, birthday parties.. etc. Used to burn me up bad inside.

Something tells me I will never fully be over it. Deep down it will always be there.