I hated her for abandoning us!
My dad will probably kill me for writing this since he hates that a dwell on the past and he snaps me out of it. He would scold at me to move on and stop dwelling one something in the past that I can’t even change.
Why did my late mom have to leave?! Nobody in my family understands my pain at all! I see my cousins with their mothers (I don’t now their actual relationship with their moms) but their moms are in their lives! It isn’t fair! My half adult siblings have a great relationship with their mother (dads ex wife) and I see the special bond. Even my dad, aunts and uncles had a special bond with their mother (my late grandma) so why didn’t I have that?!
I see my friends with their mothers i’m I’m the only one that’s left out. My mom left when I was seven and I used to cry a lot for her! I needed my mother. One of my aunts stepped in to help raise me, well she didn’t live with us but whenever I needed to do girl stuff or get “girl” things she was always there. She was heartbroken for me when my mom left. I mean I do appreciate her but she’ll never be my mom.
Everyone has been telling me mom wants nothing to do with me and I’m not a little girl crying for her mommy anymore. Be a grown up and start acting like one and MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE. My brother says that my anger and how I thought is on me and I’m not a little girl no more and I need to learn how to control my own life as adults stop blaming others for my anger and my mom leaving me. MOVE ON ALREADY! Before my mom died (two months ago), whenever I talk to her everyone either walks away from me or doesn’t respond. Even my best friends don’t respond whenever I talk about her and they would cut me off and say “Heard it.” Or just change the subject. I remember my dad talking to one of my oldest cousins that I need to stop dwelling on the past, stop talking about my mom and move on. I’m an adult now and I need to take care of myself. Mom rejected me and never calls. My cousin agreed with him. I was sitting RIGHT there. I could hear them.
Why did my late mom have to leave?! Nobody in my family understands my pain at all! I see my cousins with their mothers (I don’t now their actual relationship with their moms) but their moms are in their lives! It isn’t fair! My half adult siblings have a great relationship with their mother (dads ex wife) and I see the special bond. Even my dad, aunts and uncles had a special bond with their mother (my late grandma) so why didn’t I have that?!
I see my friends with their mothers i’m I’m the only one that’s left out. My mom left when I was seven and I used to cry a lot for her! I needed my mother. One of my aunts stepped in to help raise me, well she didn’t live with us but whenever I needed to do girl stuff or get “girl” things she was always there. She was heartbroken for me when my mom left. I mean I do appreciate her but she’ll never be my mom.
Everyone has been telling me mom wants nothing to do with me and I’m not a little girl crying for her mommy anymore. Be a grown up and start acting like one and MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE. My brother says that my anger and how I thought is on me and I’m not a little girl no more and I need to learn how to control my own life as adults stop blaming others for my anger and my mom leaving me. MOVE ON ALREADY! Before my mom died (two months ago), whenever I talk to her everyone either walks away from me or doesn’t respond. Even my best friends don’t respond whenever I talk about her and they would cut me off and say “Heard it.” Or just change the subject. I remember my dad talking to one of my oldest cousins that I need to stop dwelling on the past, stop talking about my mom and move on. I’m an adult now and I need to take care of myself. Mom rejected me and never calls. My cousin agreed with him. I was sitting RIGHT there. I could hear them.
22-25, F