I Have Trichotillomania

My eyelashes have grown beautifully within the past week. My lashes are my pulling area so they're often short with gaps between them because of this. They're pretty long if I leave them alone long enough but I usually relapse after a month or two. This time I'm going to make them my vanity. If I do that, I won't feel like pulling them. I've resisted pulling them several times since my decision to stop pulling last week. They usually grow back slowly but they're growing like there's no tomorrow because I apply Vaseline and black castor oil to them twice a day, in the morning and before bed. They look longer than they naturally are, too. I'll probably have the gap completely gone by the end of this week or the next one. Only twice did I pull unconsciously when I was stressed. Luckily I only pulled two hairs and the oils made it too slippery to grip any more.

Since they're my vanity now, I've started wearing eye makeup again. This also discourages pulling because I don't want to smudge it.

I think things will go well this time. Even if I relapse, I think it'll be easier to stop because of all the effort I'm putting into my lashes now.

Wish me luck! I really need it!