I Have a Sister

She is in hospice care now. By the time her cancer was diagnosed it had spread too far for them to do anything for her. Just morphine for the pain.

I'm told there is no point trying to get there to see her. She won't last long enough for me to get there.

I texted her instead of called because it's too hard for her to speak. It's awfully hard to know what to say. I don't know how I feel. Sort of shocked and numb.

Thought maybe posting this would help me deal with the emotions. It hasn't