Teresa, YOU need to learn you have the ability to begin again. Just to create a friend you might use to shout out your personal fears and your gains of confidence. There are others out there like you who feel there is no other place to turn.
YOU can walk out your door and take that step. Find groups with other door ways and feel comfortable, with women like yourself.
Brighten a smile and know deep in your heart, you gifted this person with a smile. KNOW and feel this JOY of freedom.
Ask around in your community if there are places a single woman might go to feel the comfort of other humans.
I might suggest you seek a Karaoke Bar. 'You don't drink alcohol?
They also serve Soda. It's more about going out and meeting others. Having the freedom to talk and to smile. AND become a part of the LIVING once again.
Men are taught by their fathers to be STRONG and firm! Women are raised by their Mothers. To give of themselves and take care of their man. We women are STRONG. We can rise above and become STRONGER! Just take that step. Discover there is life after abuse, Not to mention protection in the company of a crowd.