I know how you feels, i used to think i should have never came out to my mom about being transgender. Because for 2 years she didn't care i wore boy clothes and she didn't mind i had mid length hair but when i came out she yelled at me and said i will never be her son. My parental also grounded me from the internet the long time and made me get a girl haircut until i asked to even it and "messed up" so i had short hair again. Then it was summer and i had to get my hair fixes before school but then i was no longer aloud to have girls or boys come over because or have anyone spend the night because they claimed i was having sex even though I'm still a virgin. Then they made me grow my hair out for 7 months until i broke in tears and begged for a haircut then my stepdad said "do whatever the fuck i want" but when i did he took away the wifi again. But before i turned 16 i moved out and i broke my mom's heart and not until then she realized i would never be a girl. I came out 3 1/2 years ago and she understands I'm transgender but she still calls me a girl but I'm aloud to have short hair but i still can't have anyone spend the night. It's a progress one day she will understand.

Be strong my boy you got Adam and us