I Have Experienced Loss

Grief isn’t a single moment in time. It’s the absence of every promise your heart held for a tomorrow that wouldn’t come.
Grief is that love you reserved for someone that you can no longer release because they aren’t here- it’s all that love you meant to give them over a lifetime but it’s bottled up - with no escape - the pressure building and no where to go.
Grief isn’t a straight forward line you can walk, it’s a wavering path, climbing up and down hills, jumping over rocks, swimming in vast oceans. Sometimes the oceans are calm and others it’s a raging sea.

Sometimes I honestly don’t know how I’m still breathing. I try not to focus on the loss I’ve experienced over my life, each loss preparing me to accept and maneuver a greater loss to come.
Am I lucky for what I have or unfortunate for what I’ve lost.
The answer is - I’m both.

And grief is like that, it can turn one perfect beautiful seemingly uncomplicated day into a night of lonely tears.

KayraJordyn · F

Kay, thank you so much for taking the time to process your grief here, where it can help others who are suffering. I can't imagine the strength it takes to make it through what you've gone through. I can't tell you how much I appreciate and admire the courage and love you have shown. <3 You're a blessing.

I'm so very sorry for your loss, each and every one. I so pray you will soon hold all your beautiful babies in their loving mother's arms, and that those you lost will show you the grace and beauty and unconditional love they've found in heaven. 🙏 One thing that's really precious is that they got to be lovingly wrapped up in the safest, most protected place they could ever known on earth, within their mother. They didn't experience the brunt of the vast pain, destruction and heartache this world is full of. Only safety.

It will never make right that the world never got to benefit from their light, it will never be right that you didn't get to see who they could become; but their light burns brightly, living on in you and your other equally precious babies. 😊💜

I'm sorry if I've overstepped, or if I'm off base by talking about something so personal and painful. I just wanted to share that you've really touched me.

Keep smiling and loving on your family, beautiful lady. They're blessed to have you.

KaysHealingPath · 36-40, F

Thank you so much @KayraJordyn for your kind and beautiful words. They’ve brought a tear to my eyes. I love and appreciate your support and that I’ve received from many in the SW community.

The exact reason for why I write these painful post is exactly the reason you e written- I want other who have experienced similar or even other losses who can relate know that they’re not alone in their pain.

Thank you for taking the time to write out such a beautiful and heartfelt response 🤗

KayraJordyn · F

I'm so glad you've gotten such great support here. I too have come to care about others here, and I feel really lucky to have their support.

I'm really glad there are people like you here. It's not easy to share pieces of your life with strangers, and you've shared something very precious and personal with such grace. It's important we each have a support system, and some people here don't have that until they come to SW. I hope more people who have experienced loss read this, I feel among so many frivolous stories (some of which I enjoy, hee) diamonds are hiding, and some of these experiences are really important. Things I wish everyone could read.

This is important.

Thanks again, Kay. 🤗