I "What Does Not Kill Me, Will Only Make Me Stronger"

If that is the way it has to be then so be it. I am not going to fight to try to convince you my opinion matters, or that I told you so or remind you of all the times you have treaded on my heart intentionally or not. I am becoming indifferent to your problems, your strifes, your messed up life. This is not what I wanted, this is what you have created. Please for once just fucking own it just your little piece of the mess instead of hiding behind blaming me. I am so sick of it. I am moving on and well I have to say that although I lost myself in the relationship; I have found myself on the other end of the spectrum, stronger, better, more vibrant than ever before. I have a little thing called confidence that can only be found through true sufferring and inner turmoil over the years, thank you. Yes, you will down play it, I would expect nothing more from you because you are not strong enough to live in your own truth never mind mine, that has never existed for you. It's OK now, I do not hold against you that you are so naive to actually think I would stay in such a miserable situation without having a reason to do so. I would have gone through hell and back for you because I loved you so much. I woke up, grew up, bucked up and well am moving into my own life. A world where, the decisions I make will stand or fall on their own, where they will not be negated and second guessed because they do not belong to you. Where I know the all too familiar feeling of heart break will almost be enough to break me but if I just keep the momentum going, it does eventually pass. I am extremely competent to take care of my own little family. Its too bad you never saw it that way and I have to say I do see a pattern of sickening taught dependency that I see from your mother. Sad really. You have been taught that all women are martyrs or whores. Sad that the whole use me abuse me but just dont leave me is an idea of a relationship. Sad that you as an oldest child of an asian family are so well groomed by adulthood to be the caretaker of the family; JUST NOT YOUR OWN.
The thing that disappoints me the most is that I thought your family was going to be my family. It will never happen. I have lost interest. And well I have to say that the amount of damage done to our relationship by your family without you so much as saying a peep hasn't helped. Best of luck. I wish nothing but the best for the two of you. PS when you are fucking your mother make sure you call out my name just to remind her. :)