I Used to Cut

I've been close to relapsing lately. There's so much stress and so much pain. I've been clean for months. It replays in my mind over and over, how much better I will feel if I cut. I'm scared. I'm scared of myself. My psychiatrist wants to admit me to a hospital, that scares me too. I'm just scared. I don't know what to do. Relapsing seems like such a good idea.