I Believe In Forgiveness
I love reading through my old journals. I was just reading a page I wrote when I was going through the rough patch..
To think it all started when I met you on sucha beautiful day under the sun, dancing at a festival where the band was playing... And then thinking about the day everything between us ended, and I was tormented in the coldest winter I had ever known, heart breaking, as I stood there humiliated in front of you and your friends.....
It took a lot for me to forgive u, I couldn't even allow myself to hate you or even stay angry with you. I think you always knew that, that you had that certain power over me. And the truth is that you did in some way! I never knew how to say no to you.. I learned so much from you... Maybe I needed to learn about my addictions and you were one of mine... I learned that the people closest to you, can be the cruelest and most dishonest.
To think it all started when I met you on sucha beautiful day under the sun, dancing at a festival where the band was playing... And then thinking about the day everything between us ended, and I was tormented in the coldest winter I had ever known, heart breaking, as I stood there humiliated in front of you and your friends.....
It took a lot for me to forgive u, I couldn't even allow myself to hate you or even stay angry with you. I think you always knew that, that you had that certain power over me. And the truth is that you did in some way! I never knew how to say no to you.. I learned so much from you... Maybe I needed to learn about my addictions and you were one of mine... I learned that the people closest to you, can be the cruelest and most dishonest.
36-40, F
