I've Come To Realize That Blood Doesn't Make A Family
Well here we are! Christmas day! Internally I'm pretty freaking happy! I've got something productive to look forward to, and I have some pretty awesome friends! :) ;) But here I am, sitting in my room after retreating from the nothing that is my immediate family!
My mom always cries on holidays.. Today all of the gifts that she got were wrong, and the food she was working on got messed up so once my dad had left the house on his own, she started crying :/ If I had known what clothes sizes she wears or the specifics of the things she wanted I wouldn't have forgotten.. But that's not the problem. She wouldn't have been upset if she had written down exactly what she wanted.. Her food wouldn't have gotten messed up if she had told people not to mess with it.. So she got upset.
I honestly don't think my parents have a clue what Christmas is about.. Every other day for the last two weeks my mom has complained about how she spends SO MUCH on our Christmas presents.. It's idiotic. All we get is a bunch of crap we probably don't need, and she is just so worried about it! I would have loved today just as much if I had only gotten 1 of the things I had asked for, because the best part of it was the little toys that are actually fun to go outside and play with together.
That's the sad part about it.. Today wouldn't have been a tiny bit different if they had gotten me shoes and nothing else.. and that is even more messed up.. That's all Christmas is in this house.. Breakfast, presents, more food, and A Christmas Story. That's it. It's a massive waste of time and money if nobody is making use of it in a positive way. It's a waste in this house; on this "family".
My mom always cries on holidays.. Today all of the gifts that she got were wrong, and the food she was working on got messed up so once my dad had left the house on his own, she started crying :/ If I had known what clothes sizes she wears or the specifics of the things she wanted I wouldn't have forgotten.. But that's not the problem. She wouldn't have been upset if she had written down exactly what she wanted.. Her food wouldn't have gotten messed up if she had told people not to mess with it.. So she got upset.
I honestly don't think my parents have a clue what Christmas is about.. Every other day for the last two weeks my mom has complained about how she spends SO MUCH on our Christmas presents.. It's idiotic. All we get is a bunch of crap we probably don't need, and she is just so worried about it! I would have loved today just as much if I had only gotten 1 of the things I had asked for, because the best part of it was the little toys that are actually fun to go outside and play with together.
That's the sad part about it.. Today wouldn't have been a tiny bit different if they had gotten me shoes and nothing else.. and that is even more messed up.. That's all Christmas is in this house.. Breakfast, presents, more food, and A Christmas Story. That's it. It's a massive waste of time and money if nobody is making use of it in a positive way. It's a waste in this house; on this "family".
26-30, M