I Am Guilty For a Lot of Reasons

My Legacy Of Guilt And Blame... I blame myself for my own molestation.  I should have stopped it, should have run, should have told someone, should have been a better son, should have figured out how to avoid him, should not have cried so much from the pain, etc.  I hold so much guilt in me, I have avoided the truth of my past for almost 40 years.  The dream of my wife is reaching the day when I can say I am a victim, I am a survivor and it is not my fault.  I pray it comes soon.