I Am Confused About My Relationship

I'm about to meet the Lady I pledged to marry. that was 2 yrs ago. we've fought since then. a lot. but in doing so we have avoided those fights later in life - we will simply understand by then. we are each fighting the others weaknesses with them, wishing only the best for them, fighting their battles in our ways. but we each fight back, every step of the way. it's a seriously tough battle and we weren't sure we would stick it out when we parted back in September.

now we will meet. Tuesday at noon. I have no idea what I will feel, except compassion. what will I want? she seems to have got all needy in the bedroom suddenly, which hasn't happened like ever (could well be birth control I wish she'd ditch it). and I... for the first time, am not. for the very first time my drive is coasting along nicely and I'm able (mostly) to look a girl in the eye while I'm talking to her - and most importantly while she's talking to me.

what will I feel? I'm nervous and have butterflies to fund out... scary! I hope I will find the strength (in God) to be honest. I pray that she does too.

goodnight EP. live long.