I Think Im Gonna Be Ok
I really feel like ive been moving forward with my emotions and while its exciting it is also terrifying at the same time.
I feel like im changing. Its as if i had trapped my self in a box of my sorrows and im finally coming out.
Of course there are some shadows that followed me out but i feel like im really getting to a point where i can barely see them.
I realized i had been reliving my past and now i can tell when im doing that. When im on the verge of an anxiety attack i can pin point what it is im thinking about from the past that is making me scared of my future. And ive already decided i dont want to be scared anymore.
I want to be the type of person who keeps pushibg forward until someone else tells me to stop not that ill let others stop me per se but i just dont want to be the person that is holding me back.
All these images of me freeing myself play over and over in my mind. Bad visions and good visions are at war in my mind. It takes a lot of effort to monitor my thoughts but i have gotten better. Im not nearly as negative and when i look back at my old posts and all my old diary pages espically from the 2012 to around the 2016 time frame i can say i ha e improved myself mind and body a lot.
I feel good. I dont really fear the lows anymore because i know that i can make it back to the highs. I do still have some ovsessive fears but im getting over them. I really feel like i am. I just wonder if others xmcan see it too.
I feel like im changing. Its as if i had trapped my self in a box of my sorrows and im finally coming out.
Of course there are some shadows that followed me out but i feel like im really getting to a point where i can barely see them.
I realized i had been reliving my past and now i can tell when im doing that. When im on the verge of an anxiety attack i can pin point what it is im thinking about from the past that is making me scared of my future. And ive already decided i dont want to be scared anymore.
I want to be the type of person who keeps pushibg forward until someone else tells me to stop not that ill let others stop me per se but i just dont want to be the person that is holding me back.
All these images of me freeing myself play over and over in my mind. Bad visions and good visions are at war in my mind. It takes a lot of effort to monitor my thoughts but i have gotten better. Im not nearly as negative and when i look back at my old posts and all my old diary pages espically from the 2012 to around the 2016 time frame i can say i ha e improved myself mind and body a lot.
I feel good. I dont really fear the lows anymore because i know that i can make it back to the highs. I do still have some ovsessive fears but im getting over them. I really feel like i am. I just wonder if others xmcan see it too.
