I Am Having Family Problems

@firefall But it feels like I am not one of her child.

@Leafkiss Can you talk to her, try to get her to make some show of affection, maybe?

@firefall I wish I could gather up enough courage to do that.

@Leafkiss I understand. It's a tough thing to do, not least because of the hidden fear that the answer will be no.

@firefall That is so true! Maybe I can talk to her when I prove to my mother that I am worth loving.

@Leafkiss You are worth loving, already.

Although clearly that's not the message you're getting from her, I know. But never doubt, you are worth loving right now. You're here, still alive, articulate, clearly sensitive, and (presumably) not in jail.

@firefall Thank you for that. I think I needed that. I just wish that my mother could trust me. I want her to trust me too.

@Leafkiss I can well understand that - how would you not, really. I wish I had a way of making that happen: all I can say, really, is that I've seen a similar dynamic with several of my friends, and their mothers all did realise what they were missing out on, eventually. But eventually can feel like forever, I know.

@firefall I also wish she will realize it before it's too late.

@Leafkiss Well, if you need encouragement or support til she does, feel free to contact me

@firefall Thank you.

@Leafkiss Well I have read the messages between you and firefall did you ever think that maybe your brother needs the extra love and support and she see you as the strong one. Sometimes what we feel and see is the total opposite. If you cannot talk to your mom well send her a nice letter maybe she does not know what she is doing is wrong and affecting you.

@updown2020 Maybe you're right. Well, I think I just have to talk to my mother then. Hope this works.