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I Am Trying To Be Normal

I am trying. I am trying to go out and go on dates and be social. I know the risk. The slightest misstep and I will fall back into the void. I am trying not to. I got stood up today. My mind was on fire. I did not react. I wanted to react...to burn...to bleed. I didn't. I'm trying to figure out why people don't want to be around me. Once I do, I will change it. I will morph myself into what is needed to be normal or break down in the process.

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HoraceGreenley · 56-60, M

What are you afraid of?

bunnyXbunny · 36-40, M

@HoraceGreenley I am afraid of connecting because every time I do I get screwed over and I react in very unhealthy ways.

CharlesTheThird · 41-45, M

@bunnyXbunny I have a friend who had this happen to him for 25 years. Then one day, he met the woman of his dreams. They married and are just amazing. She adores him. He’s such a great guy! And it was hard to see him go through so much crap! He married at age 40. So, hang in there. Truly!