I Think I Am Ugly

My face is passable but my body. Another story.

I love beautiful things. Aesthetically pleasing art, design, colors, shapes, and forms.

My body is not that.

How many times I've wished I had the firm body and supple breasts of other women.

I dont.

I wear the ugly I've experienced in life on my body.

Dramatic weight loss has caused a sagging stomach and breast, age has done nothing to help.

Underneath, all that flab and sag, I have strong, firm muscles. But...cant tell.

My goal is to get a fluer de lies surgery, boob enhancement and lipo. Maybe then, I can look in the mirror, without clothes, and not cringe.

Anyone else feel this way?

Please tell me I'm not the only one that feels like my vessel through life, is a delapitated old ship, that looks like it should be sunk to the bottom of the ocean?