I Feel Sad Right Now

Yeah, but it's pretty much the offspring of EP and it's still very much in it's infantile state. I think maturity will naturally come with time even though the shenanigans will always be present.

Maybe, though I suspect and fear that what SW has become is just part of a larger degradation toward triviality that was already present on EP, and that if anything is irrevocably worse here because the questions and stories have been largely merged together.

I understand, Hun.

I want to gouge the eyes out of whoever had the bright idea to mix the stories in with the questions by default. Great, more quantity of content - and to hell with the drop in quality.

@BlueDiver: yeah it's been one of my complaints from the very beginning. But I've sort of just rolled with it.

At the beginning, there were many posts of those quality here, it's just that they get pushed down the activity feed quite quickly... and I guess people have sort of given up.

I wish that I was the kind of person who could roll with it - but I figured out a long time ago that depth and authenticity is the only kind of communication that resonates with me. It's who I am, for better or for worse. And as much as those things are supposed to be good, valued things, my experience has been that the world generally looks down on them and does its best to beat them out of us.

I think ep had the more serious posts sometimes. This site is just silly.

@GundamWing: Oh.. I like silly much better and thought ep was boring.. but that's just me.

@BlueDiver: sleep well

I won't (insomnia), but thanks for the kind thought anyway :)

There's a great deal of wisdom in what you said - I think that you're 100% right that most people are asleep in terms of recognizing the deeper truths of the world, and that that blindness seems to be a much happier place to live than the place where I live. Building blind spots and avoiding the truths that we don't want to see is one of the deepest aspects of human nature - one that I see again and again in almost everyone.

But for better or for worse, the path of blindness is irrevocably closed to me. And the ironic thing is that when I was tearing my blind spots irrevocably down, I was too blind to recognize what that destruction would mean for my future. It was blindness that allowed me to kill the blindness. And even though I don't like where I am now, I still recognize that it's better than where I would be if I had continued down the path that my demented childhood put me on.

I've been trying to find a way to rise above it for a long time now. Hell, one of my account names on another site contained (but was not limited to) the words "rise above." But even though I've gained some wisdom over time, I still feel like I'm down in the dirt, licking my wounds.